The Past Life Connection

Monday, 21 June 2010


The Past Life Connection. . .


Ok so most of us have had past lives in some context, either many hundred for the older souls who originate back from the dawn of creation, to the newer ones coming in for the first time on this planet. Most of us older ones have had lives with each other either as karmic partners/soul mates or bit part players/support acts to each other. For a percentage who have been incarnate on the Twin Flame frequency - those who hold there Twin Flames in an external Duality we have experienced only a handful of those lives together in a karmic push-pull until the time to fully unite arrives in our final incarnations.


Some say we have only 12 lives with our Twins, but it may be more. I know I have recalled 11 of them with him over the course of a year - one life I recalled before but only the fragments in which I recognized my ex and my sister.




My Ex partner seems to have been the catalyst for the continual karmic dance of seperation in each of my lives shared with my Twin - at some level it seems he agreed to the role of "bad guy" (of course this is a matter of perspective - it is more to do with the lessons each of us needed to learn - it is not to say he is a bad person!)




I have been suprised, even shocked at some of the lives I recall. The first Life was picked up by another psychic who channels beings known as "The Many" Who I also now work with and channel also. They seem to be made up of many beings including masters, celestials and members of the light council as well as personal guides all working together in a common goal.




Our first Life incarnate conciously as brother and sister on Arcturi/s. I was a High Priestess of sorts, and he was a commander in the Military, I believe the Galactic Federation of the time. My Ex was a politician and My sister mine and my Twins Mother. One Woman I know was my best friend, advisor and counsel, her Twin Flame, a pilot in the fleet. In this life this woman and my Twin were Partners as she was also a bounty hunter/renegade warrior and she and he hit it off as they both loved the adventure.

My ex was jealous of the close bond I shared with my brother and wanted to get close to me. He felt to get my Twin out of the way, he sent him on a mission to a planet that was being attacked by the Syrian Councils genetically engineered "arachnids" (they are like big giant scorpian spidery things that decimate planets). The idea was to get him out of the way for a while. However his plan failed as I rejected the advances. I had asked my counsel to join my brother/Twin and look after him, which she agreed to. Both her and my brother knew the likelyhood of coming back though was slim given the nature of the mission. I was unaware, and after rejecting the exes advances, in jealousy he had me diposed through spin of words and lies. I was exiled, where he again tried to advance on me thinking I would need him in my lonely state. Again I rejected him and he died a bitter an twisted being. After I was exiled I shortly thereafter learned my brother had died on the mission along with virtually all those on the planet. My friend Janine was The planets royalty along with her Twin, Venusian. They survived the onslaught only to witness the destruction of their civilisation. The other womans Twin, left that life feeling guilty because he was made to believe he didn't get the rescue ship to the planet on time - although he did, another spin by my ex to avoid blame for his decision to send the fleet out.

I died of a broken heart following the news of my brothers and my counsels death and felt guilt over it only uncovered when I past life read the woman, allowing me to resolve that guilt with her.



I am not sure if these lives are in order after this one as mostly I either was not aware of the dates or haven't yet recalled enough to know. The rest of the lives are on Earth.


The next one again was recalled in context with the ex as I was married to him as his Queen, he ruled a part of Atlantis. My Name was Awen, and when I recalled looking over a cliff at the ocean with the full moon bright in the sky awaiting my beloved husband I was aware I was 225 years old, blonde loose wavy hair, bright blue eyes - standard Atlantean colouring, I loved to tend to an apple orchard and pick apples. I was an attuned crystal knowledge keeper and I supported my husbands ruling. My Twin was a good friend and counsel to us both. However this was at the time toward the end of the Golden Age, my ex was corrupted by power and greed and left me heartbroken to overthrow the main rulers of Atlantis with invading forces from other worlds offering technology and power.

TF then became my confident, and eventually companion. Towards the end we confronted the ex and the others, and in anger at my "betrayal" towards him in my refusal to join him and being with my Twin, my ex killed him. I died at the ripe old age of 1000 ish of a broken heart (again) and Atlantis was eventually destroyed.


Now I have no idea of the order, but another life I was in Holland, my mother died in childbirth leaving my Father, my Twin to look after me. I took over the house duties as I grew up and he, who was a toymaker, was my best friend as well as Dad! We had a close relationship, he doted on me and made me the most fabulous toys, loving to play with me. We would travel to sell his toys, and as I grew older, I would at times stay at home so I could attend to duties. However, one day he did not return from his travel, and I was heartbroken. I died in my 20's from some form of tumour/cancer, after years of sadness for my lost Father and Best Friend.




Cheerful much.


Another was in Germany, I was named Helga (how original). My current Dad was mine and the exes Dad - the ex was my older brother. We lived in a small cottage with a watermill and wheat field out back, a stream running by it. To one side were large hedges, the other a woodland. We were about a mile or so from the town. My Twin was part of a wealthy family and from a young age we were best friends and eventually around the age of 15 became lovers. The ex was again jealous of this bond, and of my Twins status and wealth although he shared it with us where he could and bought us gifts - one was a fine velvet dress for me! He was generous and kind and when not attending to his duties would visit as often as possible.

One day at the age of around 17 we were planning to get married, I was mushroom picking in the woods. I heard shouting - my brother (the ex) would often get drunk and my Twin would try to calm him, often ending in my brother storming off mumbling. However this time it esculated, ending in my Twin being strangled by my brother (might explain his not liking his neck being touched thing!) and I came across his body by the stream with my brother stumbling drunkingly off. After my intial shock I ran at my brother and jumped on him screaming he was a monster, and he flung me off, only for me to hit my head on a rock in the stream, killing me instantly as I fell next to my Twin. . .


Monday, 21 June 2010

Past lives continued. . .


The next one was in ancient Egypt - this one I started remembering fragments from to do with the ex around 3 years ago, when I started getting Angel related visions and seeing strange light flashes, orbs and Incubus attacks - the scariest part I ever experienced in my spiritual journey to date!


Anyhoo, I was a young girl around 15, I saw myself by the Rive Nile on lush grass fetching water in an urn. I was taken away by strangers in return for money to my father. My current life Sister was a ruling queen at this time, unable to bear children. She had many concubines, of which I became one. I became her favourite - almost like a pet. When the Romans came, one soldier named Thadius (my ex) became my secret lover - but also the Queens, to keep the peace and her happy he had to do what ever it took by command of his officers. He wanted me though, but once it was discovered I was pregnant, the Queen demanded to know who and one look told her. In her anger she chained me up and kept me in luxury to ensure the child would be safe. My friend then and now Hayley would come to me to check on me and update me on the situation. When it came to my due time, Thadius was made to make the choice of killing me, or being killed himself. He was also promised great riches. Reluctantly, he took his spear and impaled me his foot on my chest, he removed the spear and I lay dying as the Queen took a dagger and cut me open, they removed the child and the last thing I saw was her holding him - my Twin. I then died.


Another one I was a Man! In Japan, a Samuri warrior. Twin and the ex were women - Twin was my wife, who was killed by the ex who was a ninja working for the general of the Emporers army seeking a scroll I was safeguarding. I was unaware the ex was the one who killed my wife, and in my grief be-friended me, gained my trust and became my lover, only to then kill me by my own sword - calling me a fool and taking the scroll.



The next was in Africa, I am a Tribal "Princess" and Twin a warrior, we married and I get pregnant, one night the village is destroyed in a flash flood, and Twin takes me to his village. This village is later ravaged by invading white men, and Twin is killed by the ex who is one of them. I am then taken as his slave who he repeatedly abuses. I am still pregnant, but because of the beatings, I die eventually of malnutrition and blood poisoning caused by an internal rupture of the uterus.


Again - very cheerful!


One life I have no idea of timing, my Twin is a cleaner/feeder in a circus with various captured animals and unusual things. I am a wildchild - I survived in a forest, unable to speak. Captured by the circus people when they travel nearby and I approach them in curiousity, I am kept with the animals. John looks after me and over 2 years teaches me some basic speech and understanding, we form an unusual but close bond. However I catch an illness like flu, and on the grass in his arms under the moon on a clear night pass away. I am only in my teens.



The next I believe we were Cherokee/Native Americans. I seemed to be autistic in this life, my father the village chief and shaman. I inherited the abilities, such as visions and the like, and drew alot in the sand and mud the things I would see. However I didn't speak, only hummed as I drew, rocking back and forth when I did so and when stressed. I was named Rocking Bird for this.My Twin was a couple of years older, took me under his wing so to speak to try to encourage interaction with others. We became close and he taught me to horse ride, which began to bring me out of myself. On one occasion, the horse startled and stopped suddenly by a cliff edge flinging me off, as I hung on for dear life Twin rescued me. The shock scared us both, enough for me to say my first words to him which were Thankyou. . .

His name in this life was Running Wolf. My Father was called White Feather, and he is now one of my active guides, along with my brother from that life Red Eagle, who is one of my Twins Guides now. We also have our power animals working with us, his is the wolf and mine the bear. I believe the village was invaded and have a sense we were killed by hostile whites again, but the details I haven't yet recalled.


And the final one I recall - Cardiff. . .

I have no idea of historical accuracy, so I am going by what I have seen, Cardiff is invaded by what seems to be the crusaders. I am a barkeep and the local "witch" but well known and liked as I have the "healing touch" Twin is in the Kings Guard and meets me through drinking at the tavern. We flirt a lot, eventually planning to marry, he promises me I am the only woman for him now and there will be no other. When Cardiff is invaded, Twin teaches me how to handle a sword at my request, and in battle after my village is destroyed I come face to face with the one responsible - here I recognise him as the ex. He is impressed a woman would dare fight and have the courage to face him, however he wounds me leaving me on my knees. He will not kill children or women though. My Twin is fighting off a rather psychopathic crusader who knocks him down. Ex then walks away from me and puts his hand on the shoulder of the other crusader and tells him him to kill me. My Twin hears this and as the other crusader comes towards me to stab me, he leaps in front only for both of us to be impaled. As we die, he looks at me and the last thing he says is "I am sorry I couldn't protect you".