Tuesday, 22 June 2010
Not So Silent Desperation. . .
This continual battle with my ego is doing my head in. I know all this stuff, and I have had so much "foretold" about what may/will/should happen, and yet I feel like I am in a void of sorts. I know I need to focus on what to do next. I have no home, scant income and no idea what is going to happen next. I recognise however I am in a good place in a weird way, as I am free to go where I like, when I like. I have no responsibility to anyone but myself. I do have direction and know where I wish to be, but it is breaking the goal into baby steps to get there.
I was watching "Smallville" a couple of weeks back and Louis was going on about being more than in a relationship with Clarke and helping the Blur was about a greater calling, being of Service to humanity. This really hit home for me as this is what the Twin Flame relationship is about - a greater calling and being of service, not only to humanity, but to the universe.
Some Twin Flames are here only in a service aspect as friends, others in full relationships and marraige. Whatever the physical dynamic, it is all about the greater calling.
This is why what I am maybe confusing my frustration and desperation for. . . these things live in the head, because I am not getting the results I had hoped for, yet my heart pulls so hard to doing crazy things I would never have considered before. I am no longer afraid to speak out and say how I feel, and that I am openly and publicly putting the call out to my Twin Flame because this is where my path has lead me. I tried the discreet options, so now I must be more "assertive". I am continually guided by my guides and other readers/psychics and intuitives to be the one to intiate communications. . . and how I have to battle through all my obstacles to get there. There is so much heartache around, old hurts surround us as we push through this transition phase and I just want it to end so the next phase can begin.
It is now summer, and since leaving my last relationship I have learnt to love myself more and more. Whilst I still work on these, and also focus on day to day living, I have other dimensional "duties" as well as the Twin Flame Path which this is all upon. The Quest for self love and living authentically can be tough, and although simple rules apply - it is not easy. I sometimes think would I be better off as I was before all this, oblivious and ignorant to the greater works of the universe.
I know though that to live the future I have seen, I must go through a major death, and that once this is complete and all those around me who are not matching my energy will not stay in my life or shift to match mine.
As I work on my issues, these reflect on my Twin and vice versa.
Every thought, action and choice we make causes ripples to those around us, stretching out far and wide - and for us they effect the other directly even though we may not be able to see how.
I still find it hard to grasp how I Love a complete stranger, but I find myself loving people I come across more and more, that I have a heart connection that is increasingly getting stronger to those around me. Those in my soul group I just KNOW who they are because I have a distinct chakra reaction. Everyone's energy feels different, yet there are similarities.
I can tell who is heart driven, psychic, sacral driven, those who use fear as control as they are fearful themselves. I sometimes hear peoples thoughts, something that freaked me out when I suddenly picked up people making passing thoughts about me - one guy I caught thinking something like I hope she doesn't look round and see me looking at her - so of course I did and I caught him, and he looked away looking a bit uncomfortable! I could hear a mother in her head bitching about something, another wondering what to do about a situation. . . I became so overwhelmed I had to get out of there fast. The strange thing was - it was only certain people in this crowd I could read, and again I feel this might be a soul connection thing, that stuff leaks in easier if they are part of my group.
I can read others, some people are harder dependant on their own abilities and blocks, some are easy as they are open. Surface thoughts are fleeting, but I am mainly a soul reader, and when I truly connect, I can read ones soul, there purpose, who they really are and how they really feel underneath the facade of life and others preconceptions of who they think we are and who we pretend to be.
I am scraping those layers off to reveal my soul to the world and hope to inspire others to be the same. To just BE themselves. Live your soul purpose, follow your path of Joy. Mine just happens to include the challenge of having someone famous *rolls eyes* as a Twin Flame - but this is not about the packaging, this is about what lays beneath. Twin Flames are the same soul, split in two - so whilst the packaging is very very different in many ways, the soul is identical.
No-one will ever better understand your situation as a Twin Flame unless they them selves are one. Even then, the only person who truly knows you, and truly understands you is your Twin, and even for those who are "runners" eventually the path will lead you back home.
Namaste
xxx
I was watching "Smallville" a couple of weeks back and Louis was going on about being more than in a relationship with Clarke and helping the Blur was about a greater calling, being of Service to humanity. This really hit home for me as this is what the Twin Flame relationship is about - a greater calling and being of service, not only to humanity, but to the universe.
Some Twin Flames are here only in a service aspect as friends, others in full relationships and marraige. Whatever the physical dynamic, it is all about the greater calling.
This is why what I am maybe confusing my frustration and desperation for. . . these things live in the head, because I am not getting the results I had hoped for, yet my heart pulls so hard to doing crazy things I would never have considered before. I am no longer afraid to speak out and say how I feel, and that I am openly and publicly putting the call out to my Twin Flame because this is where my path has lead me. I tried the discreet options, so now I must be more "assertive". I am continually guided by my guides and other readers/psychics and intuitives to be the one to intiate communications. . . and how I have to battle through all my obstacles to get there. There is so much heartache around, old hurts surround us as we push through this transition phase and I just want it to end so the next phase can begin.
It is now summer, and since leaving my last relationship I have learnt to love myself more and more. Whilst I still work on these, and also focus on day to day living, I have other dimensional "duties" as well as the Twin Flame Path which this is all upon. The Quest for self love and living authentically can be tough, and although simple rules apply - it is not easy. I sometimes think would I be better off as I was before all this, oblivious and ignorant to the greater works of the universe.
I know though that to live the future I have seen, I must go through a major death, and that once this is complete and all those around me who are not matching my energy will not stay in my life or shift to match mine.
As I work on my issues, these reflect on my Twin and vice versa.
Every thought, action and choice we make causes ripples to those around us, stretching out far and wide - and for us they effect the other directly even though we may not be able to see how.
I still find it hard to grasp how I Love a complete stranger, but I find myself loving people I come across more and more, that I have a heart connection that is increasingly getting stronger to those around me. Those in my soul group I just KNOW who they are because I have a distinct chakra reaction. Everyone's energy feels different, yet there are similarities.
I can tell who is heart driven, psychic, sacral driven, those who use fear as control as they are fearful themselves. I sometimes hear peoples thoughts, something that freaked me out when I suddenly picked up people making passing thoughts about me - one guy I caught thinking something like I hope she doesn't look round and see me looking at her - so of course I did and I caught him, and he looked away looking a bit uncomfortable! I could hear a mother in her head bitching about something, another wondering what to do about a situation. . . I became so overwhelmed I had to get out of there fast. The strange thing was - it was only certain people in this crowd I could read, and again I feel this might be a soul connection thing, that stuff leaks in easier if they are part of my group.
I can read others, some people are harder dependant on their own abilities and blocks, some are easy as they are open. Surface thoughts are fleeting, but I am mainly a soul reader, and when I truly connect, I can read ones soul, there purpose, who they really are and how they really feel underneath the facade of life and others preconceptions of who they think we are and who we pretend to be.
I am scraping those layers off to reveal my soul to the world and hope to inspire others to be the same. To just BE themselves. Live your soul purpose, follow your path of Joy. Mine just happens to include the challenge of having someone famous *rolls eyes* as a Twin Flame - but this is not about the packaging, this is about what lays beneath. Twin Flames are the same soul, split in two - so whilst the packaging is very very different in many ways, the soul is identical.
No-one will ever better understand your situation as a Twin Flame unless they them selves are one. Even then, the only person who truly knows you, and truly understands you is your Twin, and even for those who are "runners" eventually the path will lead you back home.
Namaste
xxx
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