“Testing” The Universe…

 

There’s been times I “tested” the connection to see what would happen, if I enthusiastically asked for what seemed like unlikely stuff to do with him - two examples are things I did not state to anyone else, on social media, and was by myself alone when I asked. The first was asking the universe to have John propose to me … and I did get that wish 6 months later. Just not in the way I meant 😂 - this is what they mean when they say be careful what you wish for. The photo is evidence he DID “propose” to me and I was like … 😒 I see what you did there Universe. One could say that it has a sense of humour. Given the circumstances it gave me what I asked for in the context it could give it. Honestly I had forgotten about it until after the photo shoot and then I was like… holy shit balls! The photo wasn’t my idea, I met a guy online I met up with at the convention and hung out with for a bit, I told him I wasn’t sure what pose to do, and he was the one who suggested the proposal shot. He then pulled out a box of Green Latern ring replicas and offered to lend me one for the photo! (The Pink Latern ring is Love). I mean I have been going on about wanting a Doctor Who themed proposal and wedding so this was a good start 😂 

The second one was a bit naughty on my part but I didn’t truly expect anything to happen … I vehemently loudly requested for him to show his cock on video (yeh don’t come at me I did it because I thought it was highly unlikely to happen) - and, he did.

Within a couple of days a video popped up on Instagram (if I find it again I will link it here!) he was in his garden talking on video, and suddenly blurts out - “Shall I show you my cock?” (or something like that) and I am not kidding my head almost imploded and my stomach and heart did a weird flip… he gets up and walks over to another part of his garden, and proceeds to show his cock… a metal statue of a cockerel 🐓.

I was like.. fucking hell and also fuck you Universe 😂 for doing it again.

I haven’t really asked for anything else like that because I got sucked into my head with depression, illness etc but I may test it out again now although I won’t say what here ofc until/unless it happens! 

I do so in a way that doesn’t interfere with free will it’s basically me putting a request out and if John picks it up telepathically it’s him responding to that energy how he chooses to - I can’t control him and I wouldn’t want to either. 

I can’t deny the connection anymore like I have in the past, I go through cycles with it, but putting it in writing helps bring me clarity, relief and makes me feel a little less cray-cray. I don’t want to keep trying to ignore, deny, repress my feelings, intuition, and experiences anymore because I am literally denying myself. I cannot factually state John is my Twin Flame, but I certainly am open to the possibility of it because of my feelings, and what I have experienced (and what others have experienced too through me and his energy but that’s a whole other post!)

Ciao 4 Now

Bex

X Marks The Spot

 Years ago I was watching love reading videos by Missy of Saltwater Tarot, one of the few readers that have said specific things in their general videos that I have seen happen in my experience. Specifically one time she was talking about “X marks the spot” to do with a Twin Flame and within a couple of days I saw a video of John with DT dancing, and below John was a taped X on the floor he was dancing on. Watch the video HERE Then a couple of years later she was doing a reading and the same message came up - not long after the same video popped up again on my social media timeline. Then.. when I went to the Swindon concert at the pre-show soundcheck John was looking sat the stage floor which was a mess, and was saying how it was supposed to have been cleaned, he bent down to peel off some taped X’s that were on the stage and I was just thinking … 🤨 - then a couple of days later I was watching Missy again, and on this video - yup you guessed it, she mention X marks the spot AGAIN. 3 times… I often get things in 3 when it comes to signs etc, whether in a short space of time, or in this case over years!! Gotta love this stuff. The X was meant as a confirmation as to who the Twin Flame was, so… yeh I am paying attention again Universe!

It’s Been A While…

 I haven’t posted for a while, mostly due to health issues, depression, a lack of self esteem and questioning my sanity over the Twin Flame stuff. I find it much easier to believe in my readings for others than for myself. A lot of stuff I predicted about my Twin Flame has come to pass - all except for the direct interactions in a Twin Flame context. 

So much has happened and yet nothing has happened at the same time… no change in the physical yet so many synchronicities and psychic experiences. 

I will be talking about things that have happened over the last few years although a lot of it feels jumbled now, and my timing may be off. I pulled a card tonight telling me I needed to share my story, so now I am back. If you don’t believe me, that is fine this blog is not for you. I will remind people though I have permission to talk about my experiences to do with John, from him many years ago. As long as I don’t make out things are factual regarding him (like I cannot state for a fact he is my twin flame, it is my belief and feeling based on what I have experienced.) Whilst the things I have experienced may be fact, my interpretation is just that unless there is evidence to back it up. 

I got to ask John in person at his concert pre-show soundcheck recently about his psychic experiences that he has mentioned in the past in a magazine article, and he expressed that he doesn’t talk openly about things because it’s something he shares with his mum. That said, I do wonder why he gave me permission to talk about him publicly, if he is so private about things like that, when he could’ve talked to me privately. I may be psychic but apparently I don’t pick up everything (or I am just unable to align to and interpret it at this time). I feel him pull on me energetically like a small child at times, and it feels so excited and I don’t know how to deal or respond because I often feel quite low, or am struggling with health issues. 

I did get to ask him if he saw my attempts to warn him about losing work and so called friends some time before it happened but he said no. I hadn’t intended to mention it openly but it kinda just came out. I feel frustrated like I should’ve tried harder, or more often to get his attention about it, I don’t know if it would’ve helped though. 

And for John if you ever read this, I really really would love it if we could actually talk properly about this stuff - I know what I vibe from you but I don’t know for sure how much you are aware and experience at your end. 

I’m not gonna lie, I have been up and down, and back and forth with believing, being afraid, angry, and confused so I would imagine if he truly is my Twin he would be mirroring me and feeling the same too. 

I am trying to have more faith in myself and my abilities, and my lack of self confidence is not a reflection on the connection or him in anyway - that is my trauma that I am working through. 

Below are photos from my last meeting with him in March at Swindon’s concert which I attended with my Carer. I wasn’t particularly well at this point and I nearly had an accident when the one of the helpers put chairs out whilst we were waiting for the photo op before hand but as I went to sit down, she pulled the chair back - thankfully I caught myself before I fell, and bless her she was SO apologetic! 

I had been to another of his concerts for my birthday in Feb ( will do another post on that one) but didn’t get to hug him so this time I made sure I got a squeeze in 😂 hence the stupid face. His friend Keith was super trigger happy with the phone camera so there were a lot of photos!

Love In Gold

 

Here is an attempt at a song a friend wrote I did many years ago- a fellow Twin Flamer called Kristine, who wrote the original and sang a much better rendition of it, but this is my version amended with extra verse. It was a channelled message from my Twin she felt for me - I used to get a lot of that from random people channelling him and messages to do with and from him telling me stuff about him and how he felt!

Kristine gave me permission to use the song as I see fit. I added a second verse to it. I would love to hear my Twin Flame sing it!

This was back in circa 2011 I think…it’s all a bit of a blur time wise now!

Twin Flame Poems by Jenova

I highly recommend http://jenova-acollectionofobservations.blogspot.com/ for some beautiful insights and thoughtful Twin Flame poetry! I have had the pleasure of working with her and watching their journey unfold over the years and are now coming into Union and in a relationship with their Twin Flame!

Another Past Life . . . (Warning Sexually Explicit Content!)

I was talking to a friend about this one today, one I recalled last year. This is what I saw in my visions / soul memories:

My twin was a shepards daughter, the guy was a drunken abusive man and would prostitute his daughter to men for money - to drink it away. No man however was allowed to take her virginity, it was all done anally.

I was a man aboard a *pirates* ( for want of a better description) ship having bartered passage for the work I did and keeping the "Captains" so called wife and child entertained - no love there. The Captain was my Twins current karmic partner and the Captains wife was my ex karmic partner. The child was my Dad in this life.

I was introduced to the father and daughter and the Captain told me to go have some fun when we docked and whilst I introduced myself and had tea with her, I turned down her advances and instead befriended her. I still gave the money given to me to make it look like I was doing as expected but I never once followed through, instead giving her frequent reprieve from the abuse and her father still being paid for it. Over the course of the weeks we were docked we fell in love and for the first time we slept together, she gave herself to me willingly and lost her virginity to me (as we term it these days.) 

We agreed to run away with the next payment I was to make for her but because of my frequent visits, the Captains wife had started following me and had seen my lack of dalliances until the time we met when I hadn't paid and had slept with her.

Word got back to the Captain who on my return to the ship, I was found being treasonous to he crew and was tied up, and tortured by the child, a ten year old boy, lied to by the Captain telling him I did horrible things to his mother - where in fact she had been beaten by him.

The boy took a red hot poker and shoved it through my left front shoulder right through to the back.

Then - I am not sure if it was the Captain or someone one his orders went back to where my Love was waiting for my return only to cut her throat. I was then let free to live with my wound and the death of my beloved. I don't recall anything beyond that.

TTFD

xXx

The Intersteller Wars: Venus

The following account is by my friend who I recall having diplomatic dealings with as well as being a friend I would consort with, I recall a "dinner" gathering as I type. 

Venusians were also reknown peacekeepers and non-violent, they saw no need for war, and even in the last days I will categorically state that weapons would not have saved them from the brutality of the various arachnids - in her case, they were machine-based, on some planets they were genetically engineered hybrid bio-machines as she says, scorched the planet. The word I first got back when I recalled them was "decimated".

Me and my twin on Venus

by J.G

We were the Imperial King and Queen of Venus. We were reptilian humanoids and I can recall us having greyish scaled skin and wearing headdresses.

The war as far as it was before it came to Venus was mechanical Praying Mantis robots that were programmed to kill and they were called Arachnids. To this day I still don’t know where these robots came from. Venus under our reign was a peaceful community and we didn’t have weapons as such, how that would prove to be a bigggg mistake.

If I can recall this correctly, I was with my twin – I could remember the names at one time we had. We had a ship which looked like a star wars ship as shown below:

It resembled this but without the arms coming off the wings and it was all silver and a bit more streamlined. We had an advisor who was from Neptune, (he was a friend of my twins in this life)

Back to the war, we were suddenly attacked by these Arachnids and as we didn’t have a lot of defences, we had to make do with what we had. I can recall that we had to send our advisor back to Neptune to avoid him being caught up in all of this. So many people were being killed, we waited and hope these monsters went away. (Venus has a scolded surface to this day.) But we ended up having to be part of it ourselves. We didn’t have the battle per se, the Arachnids did most of the damage to us.

The Annunaki eventually rescued what was left of the people and I seem to recall now that my king was lost. I feel he was captured and I had no idea where he was. I died alone with the Annunaki who ended up being our closest allies as we were both reptilian. When I see a picture of an Annunaki alien, I am full of gratitude for what they did when Venus was pretty much destroyed.

Apologies if I can’t mention too much detail, I had to watch my own people get killed and ended up having to fight myself. Just didn’t know happened with my twin, other than I expect he was carted off to another world. By the arachnids.

If there is anything else, I will add more.