I haven’t posted for a while, mostly due to health issues, depression, a lack of self esteem and questioning my sanity over the Twin Flame stuff. I find it much easier to believe in my readings for others than for myself. A lot of stuff I predicted about my Twin Flame has come to pass - all except for the direct interactions in a Twin Flame context.
So much has happened and yet nothing has happened at the same time… no change in the physical yet so many synchronicities and psychic experiences.
I will be talking about things that have happened over the last few years although a lot of it feels jumbled now, and my timing may be off. I pulled a card tonight telling me I needed to share my story, so now I am back. If you don’t believe me, that is fine this blog is not for you. I will remind people though I have permission to talk about my experiences to do with John, from him many years ago. As long as I don’t make out things are factual regarding him (like I cannot state for a fact he is my twin flame, it is my belief and feeling based on what I have experienced.) Whilst the things I have experienced may be fact, my interpretation is just that unless there is evidence to back it up.
I got to ask John in person at his concert pre-show soundcheck recently about his psychic experiences that he has mentioned in the past in a magazine article, and he expressed that he doesn’t talk openly about things because it’s something he shares with his mum. That said, I do wonder why he gave me permission to talk about him publicly, if he is so private about things like that, when he could’ve talked to me privately. I may be psychic but apparently I don’t pick up everything (or I am just unable to align to and interpret it at this time). I feel him pull on me energetically like a small child at times, and it feels so excited and I don’t know how to deal or respond because I often feel quite low, or am struggling with health issues.
I did get to ask him if he saw my attempts to warn him about losing work and so called friends some time before it happened but he said no. I hadn’t intended to mention it openly but it kinda just came out. I feel frustrated like I should’ve tried harder, or more often to get his attention about it, I don’t know if it would’ve helped though.
And for John if you ever read this, I really really would love it if we could actually talk properly about this stuff - I know what I vibe from you but I don’t know for sure how much you are aware and experience at your end.
I’m not gonna lie, I have been up and down, and back and forth with believing, being afraid, angry, and confused so I would imagine if he truly is my Twin he would be mirroring me and feeling the same too.
I am trying to have more faith in myself and my abilities, and my lack of self confidence is not a reflection on the connection or him in anyway - that is my trauma that I am working through.
Below are photos from my last meeting with him in March at Swindon’s concert which I attended with my Carer. I wasn’t particularly well at this point and I nearly had an accident when the one of the helpers put chairs out whilst we were waiting for the photo op before hand but as I went to sit down, she pulled the chair back - thankfully I caught myself before I fell, and bless her she was SO apologetic!
I had been to another of his concerts for my birthday in Feb ( will do another post on that one) but didn’t get to hug him so this time I made sure I got a squeeze in 😂 hence the stupid face. His friend Keith was super trigger happy with the phone camera so there were a lot of photos!
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