Friday, 13 August 2010
Past Life Flash Back. . .
I have been feeling quite rough the past couple of days, sleeping constantly, and feeling weak and almost like I am "fading away" in some context. I managed to drag myself into the bath, only to find myself feeling even worse, and then starting to feel a bit concerned as my breathing was getting weaker.
I then asked my guides/angels what the eff was going on, and why was I feeling like this. Next thing I know I am in flashback mode to the life where I was a "wildchild" running through the forest lands I can quite vividly see myself, my arms, my legs and feel them moving. I am quite agile, and adept at foraging and scavaging. Animals do not fear me, nor I them so am able to communicate with them. I have learnt the behaviours and how to approach them with no fear and with respect.
I am around 4 or 5 when I was "lost".
I am older, I guess around 13-15 when I am found by a travelling carnival/circus and caught in my curiosity of the strange creatures camped in the forest clearing. My Twin is a boy around 16 who works as a cleaner and carer of the animals. He takes on the job of caring for me, teaches me how to communicate. He is patient and caring. There is an instant bond between us and I trust him - though not the others. I am kept in the gorilla cages, as the animals feel safe and I do with them. I try to escape on occasion, but am either caught or on the last occasion am drawn back because Twin asks me not to leave. . .yet.
He remains my carer, teacher and friend telling me if once the carnival finishes I still wish to he will not try to stop me. He feels I am "needed" with them as I show people how to interact and treat animals well. He loves the animals as much as I do and does his best to love and care for them.
The love between us is pure - there is no hidden agenda and he wishes only to care for and protect those he loves.
One day I start sleeping a lot and feeling weaker and weaker. It is 2 days later TF finds me in the forest clearing where I was found originally, 2 years before, where the carnival is camped on it's tour. I am weak stumbling towards the forest, the moon is full, the sky is clear and stars can be seen. It is a warm night with a gentle breeze. John calls me, I see him, smile and collapse. He runs to me holding me.
I can hear myself telling him "I am sorry" to which he asks "what for?"
Me: "I cannot go with you. . ."
Him: "Your ill, we must get you back"
Me: "I am sorry. . ." (I smile, weakly and put my hand on his heart)
Him: (realises how ill I am) "No. . . please. . .don't leave me. . ."
Me: "It is not our time. . ."
Him: (crying) "No. . . I love you, I am supposed to protect you. . .don't go. . . please. . .please don't go. . ." (he puts hand on my face)
Me: (holds hand on his, moves head and kisses hand gently) "It's not our time. . ." (Looks directly into his eyes) "I promise you. . . we shall meet again."
Hand falls, eyes closes and I fall asleep for the last time.
He is left sobbing holding me until the other carnival folk come out and see us. . . I feel myself leave him and the earth plane.
I had to write this whilst it was still fresh in my mind.
Why is it me who gets all the past life recalls !?
I recalled a second egyptian one where I was not a nice person, a quite vindictive woman of royalty who would happily dismember anyone who was disloyal to me. . .
One was around 1870 and I had a family, husband, 2 children and a lovely house in the country. I was a writer but never published my works as I was too "shy". I died around 70 and quite happy with my life, but not deeply satisfied.
Another was as a victorian kitchen maid, I was 23 working cutting fish, and fed the boiled heads to the kitchen cat, Molly, a black cat who sat on the stone window sill munching them. Molly as it turns out is Scatty, my current female cat. She tried to stop me leaving one night, but I just half tripped half jumped over her to run out into the cobbled street right in front of a horse and cart.
And yes I recalled the rather gruesome being trampled on. . . I wouldn't recommend it. *sigh*
Honestly some of these past lives read like a heartwrenching love novel. But I couldn't for the life of me make this stuff up! Otherwise I would be writing books already!
Following me sobbing my heart out experiencing the life with me and Twin and realising how "tragic" every life we had had ended, I was told it wouldn't be repeated again. All Karma is being resolved, hence the flashback to release the pain. It's funny how you don't realise how much you hurt until you stop distracting yourself and pay attention to it. But equally so is the fact as soon as you do pay it attention, it releases and one feels so much lighter happier and better! I don't feel as bad as before, so it definitely shifted something.
I am actively shifting as much and all the stuff I no longer need emotionally etc to allow in the brand spanky new life that awaits me. . . :o) x
Namaste
xx
Past Life Flash Back. . .
I have been feeling quite rough the past couple of days, sleeping constantly, and feeling weak and almost like I am "fading away" in some context. I managed to drag myself into the bath, only to find myself feeling even worse, and then starting to feel a bit concerned as my breathing was getting weaker.
I then asked my guides/angels what the eff was going on, and why was I feeling like this. Next thing I know I am in flashback mode to the life where I was a "wildchild" running through the forest lands I can quite vividly see myself, my arms, my legs and feel them moving. I am quite agile, and adept at foraging and scavaging. Animals do not fear me, nor I them so am able to communicate with them. I have learnt the behaviours and how to approach them with no fear and with respect.
I am around 4 or 5 when I was "lost".
I am older, I guess around 13-15 when I am found by a travelling carnival/circus and caught in my curiosity of the strange creatures camped in the forest clearing. My Twin is a boy around 16 who works as a cleaner and carer of the animals. He takes on the job of caring for me, teaches me how to communicate. He is patient and caring. There is an instant bond between us and I trust him - though not the others. I am kept in the gorilla cages, as the animals feel safe and I do with them. I try to escape on occasion, but am either caught or on the last occasion am drawn back because Twin asks me not to leave. . .yet.
He remains my carer, teacher and friend telling me if once the carnival finishes I still wish to he will not try to stop me. He feels I am "needed" with them as I show people how to interact and treat animals well. He loves the animals as much as I do and does his best to love and care for them.
The love between us is pure - there is no hidden agenda and he wishes only to care for and protect those he loves.
One day I start sleeping a lot and feeling weaker and weaker. It is 2 days later TF finds me in the forest clearing where I was found originally, 2 years before, where the carnival is camped on it's tour. I am weak stumbling towards the forest, the moon is full, the sky is clear and stars can be seen. It is a warm night with a gentle breeze. John calls me, I see him, smile and collapse. He runs to me holding me.
I can hear myself telling him "I am sorry" to which he asks "what for?"
Me: "I cannot go with you. . ."
Him: "Your ill, we must get you back"
Me: "I am sorry. . ." (I smile, weakly and put my hand on his heart)
Him: (realises how ill I am) "No. . . please. . .don't leave me. . ."
Me: "It is not our time. . ."
Him: (crying) "No. . . I love you, I am supposed to protect you. . .don't go. . . please. . .please don't go. . ." (he puts hand on my face)
Me: (holds hand on his, moves head and kisses hand gently) "It's not our time. . ." (Looks directly into his eyes) "I promise you. . . we shall meet again."
Hand falls, eyes closes and I fall asleep for the last time.
He is left sobbing holding me until the other carnival folk come out and see us. . . I feel myself leave him and the earth plane.
I had to write this whilst it was still fresh in my mind.
Why is it me who gets all the past life recalls !?
I recalled a second egyptian one where I was not a nice person, a quite vindictive woman of royalty who would happily dismember anyone who was disloyal to me. . .
One was around 1870 and I had a family, husband, 2 children and a lovely house in the country. I was a writer but never published my works as I was too "shy". I died around 70 and quite happy with my life, but not deeply satisfied.
Another was as a victorian kitchen maid, I was 23 working cutting fish, and fed the boiled heads to the kitchen cat, Molly, a black cat who sat on the stone window sill munching them. Molly as it turns out is Scatty, my current female cat. She tried to stop me leaving one night, but I just half tripped half jumped over her to run out into the cobbled street right in front of a horse and cart.
And yes I recalled the rather gruesome being trampled on. . . I wouldn't recommend it. *sigh*
Honestly some of these past lives read like a heartwrenching love novel. But I couldn't for the life of me make this stuff up! Otherwise I would be writing books already!
Following me sobbing my heart out experiencing the life with me and Twin and realising how "tragic" every life we had had ended, I was told it wouldn't be repeated again. All Karma is being resolved, hence the flashback to release the pain. It's funny how you don't realise how much you hurt until you stop distracting yourself and pay attention to it. But equally so is the fact as soon as you do pay it attention, it releases and one feels so much lighter happier and better! I don't feel as bad as before, so it definitely shifted something.
I am actively shifting as much and all the stuff I no longer need emotionally etc to allow in the brand spanky new life that awaits me. . . :o) x
Namaste
xx
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