Kilianamalaan and Kartumalos - Our *Higher 7th Dimensional Selves*. . .

Wednesday, 30 June 2010

Kilianamalaan & Kartumalos - Our 7th dimensional *Higher Selves*. . .

(2020 Edit) I'm not sure what else to call them - they are us but as time is not something that they measure to call them future versions may be inaccurate. They exist as us and yet not the US we are here and now physically...? I need to look more into this and re-establish my connection with them consciously. 



I first discovered their existence via Brendan of Collapsing Duality back in 2010, and in our correspondence, we agreed on doing some meditations and see what our guides came up with regards to our 7th Dimensional names and place on the Soul Pyramid. Whereas I didn't get names I did see strongly *1st* run in front of my inner eye and was told we were A pyramids parents. I haven't deep dived into the pyramid stuff since I lost contact with Brendan but it is something I will do in future to further what I have learned from and with him.

Kilianamalaan is part human part Arcturian, my 7th dimensional Higher Self. 

Kartumalos is her/my counterpart.

They have jewels in their foreheads and hands, Kartumalos is smaller than Kilianamalaan, and they both present differently as human/Arcturian - sometimes more human, sometimes more Arcturian. I am not sure of their REAL forms as this may be only how they present to us because of how our brains can perceive them.

Both are very gentle but very powerful and precise in their energy.

Synchronicities and the Doctor Who / Torchwood Connection

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Synchronicities & the Doctor Who / Torchwood Connection

Synchronicity is the experience of two or more events that are apparently causally unrelated occurring together in a meaningful manner. To count as synchronicity, the events should be unlikely to occur together by chance. The phenomenon of synchronicity was first described by Carl Gustav Jung in the 1920s.


The concept does not question, or compete with, the notion of causality. Instead, it maintains that just as events may be grouped by cause, they may also be grouped by their meaning. Since meaning is a complex mental construction, subject to conscious and subconscious influence, not every correlation in the grouping of events by meaning needs to have an explanation in terms of cause and effect.

The Doctor Who Connection


So to others the seemingly random events are meaningless - pointless even, but they are my way of being shown signs I am on the right path. The Doctor himself has many times noted about seemingly random and meaninless coincidences that shouldn't be discounted, that can go overlooked and sometime the most obvious is staring you in the face (like I hadn't got THAT message a million times from Spirit Lol!)
I will have to go through my notes to update the events, but the biggest link was Cardiff, the fact obviously John is Jack, and he even had his own spin off series based in Cardiff. The fact the time war mirrors the interstellar war - no accident I feel - and the amount of times that frikkin program has triggered of flashblacks and realisations.
And then the Northampton link - like why was the HUB convention held in Northampton of all places? Matt Smith is from Northampton. . . my exes ex who is an old mate of mine, her cousin knew/snogged Matt back in their teens. . .it that 6 degrees of seperation thing - everyone in the world knows everyone else through a maximum of six people, apparently.


And I keep meeting people who know people in Doctor Who or have met one of the Doctors or know my Twin, and then whenever I think of something like I wish my TF was on this or that or wonder something, he will then be on it, or talk about it in an interview (except get in contact with me Argh!)
Either I am picking up on what he is doing before he does it - or he is doing the stuff I am enquiring to the universe about and he is picking up on it. Or both.
And the Cardiff thing - before I even knew he was my Twin Flame that was going off - feeling pulled to going there and kinda already knowing it was important somehow.


I look at the England flag and I feel some faint disgust at it - which makes sense given the Cardiff life, I have never been comfortable with this country. I see the Wales Flag and I feel some sort of Pride almost for it - and I have no knowledge of the Welsh at all Lmao!


The weird thing is alot of the time I miss his TV stuff, and when I do eventually see it on You-Tube or read an article the timing is uncannily relevant to surrounding events and thoughts at the time.


And you know what? I REALLY hope he gets all the shite I do from this coz I will be majorly peeved to find I am bearing the brunt of the emotional/psychic/intuitive stuff for both of us - I have enough with Spirit assuring me it is because I am the one anchoring in the Twin flame frequency and all the rest of the Ascension Bollox, which is all fine and Dandy that both he & I are "Key Players" in the big planetary shift consciousness, but I am not overly impressed I been doing it physically alone for the past year.


I reached a crash point a few weeks back when I had a paralysis attack and I really thought they had started up again. I was hysterical at the thought of living like that again, and I couldn't bear the thought of it. I was even ready to fuck the whole Twin Flame thing off, and I wanted John to be with me so badly then to make it all go away - he was the only one I could think of, but at the same time I wanted to forget it all, and to just end it. I really had had enough.


But, here I am, I held on and kicked my own arse out of it - with the help of my Dad and my friend Anna, who is going through the whole agonizing reunion process too. At least she has met hers already. . .
And I made a promise that no matter what I would see this journey through to completion and that the future I saw in my visions I trust WILL happen, because it is a bright one filled with much love and joy and so far my life hasn't felt on the whole that joyful, which isn't a complaint - just a sad statement of fact of my own making.

Oh and this evening, the one TV program I chose to watch that I was interested in was Bizarre ER on BBC3 - only for Northampton General Hospital to be on it - and the Doctor who saw me when I ended up there with suspected stroke. And the person Narrating it was Freema who played Martha! (10's 2nd companion).
Back to the Doctor I saw when I was in A&E last year - He looked very serious when I explained my symptoms, what had happened (think heavy physical bedroom session followed by a large amount of screaming and I felt this rush up my spine, to my head and my head just went POP! I couldn't speak for a short while, or move my left side, along with my face feeling like it was being pulled. However the ex couldn't see anything and eventually it eased and I fell asleep. In retrospect I should've gone straight to A&E, but next morning on bus my left arm went and then the face pull again. Then I started to feel weak in my left leg so I phoned the NHS helpline who said to get to A&E. So i did.
After Doc explained I'd need a CT scan and maybe a lumbar puncture - he said to the ex - "If she is ok, good one mate" or summit to that effect. Nice.

Since then I have had it several times - linked in with when I recieve Twin Flame related visions - if I ask for it to stop it usually does, or at least subsides. I also have experienced a kundalini rise and blissed out state and this was very much like what happened prior to the head pop, so I believe the rather physical activity triggered a massive sacral shift and awoke my kundilini rather violently - which can be rather dangerous. . .
Obviously now I know how to work with the energy bodies better and understand the chakras I am better able to follow what is going on. My Dad has picked up the arm and face thing when I have had it and past life read my Twin Flame through me. It seems it is directly linked to him and a warning of sorts of an issue to be dealt with.
Of course as usual though empathic me gets to directly experience every little physical sensation and emotional issue tied in with it. I really can't be arsed with trying to delve deeper without my Twin Flames interest though, as it requires effort to read that deep and I can't read him if I have a reflecting issue myself I haven't seen or identified yet.
I am tired at the moment, hence my slight annoyance about some of this stuff - and dear Twin Flame if your reading this, this isn't a reflection on you personally, it's just my own ego crap to sort out.
I just want a little support from the one person - the ONLY person who can really help me. . .
Before I said I had no expectations, and I don't, but that doesn't mean I don't have NEEDS and DESIRES. Which annoyingly as much as I logically do not want them, in my heart and soul I have them and it all pivots on my Twin. Lucky him. *rolls eyes*
*sigh*


So on that note I say fare thee well for now, til we next meet weary traveller.
Namaste
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